How #CertifiedPositive Planner Helped Me With My Walk With Jesus Christ
I was born and raised in a Catholic family. I have a grandmother who is a nun and an uncle who is a priest. I attended a catholic school since grade one until college but it does not make me a religious person. I don’t attend Sunday mass unless there is a school activity and we are required to attend. I only pray if I want to and most of the time if I need to ask God for something. I knew God existed and I do believe in Him but I never have a personal relationship with God.
Growing up without my parents’ presence was hard and it became harder when they separated a week before my high school graduation. No words can describe how painful it was for me. I hated them as much as I hated and questioned God- why did He allow it to happen. It made my heart more distant to Him. I only talk to Him if I am in need of something. But then I realized why God listen and answer even if we’re not close.
After my high school graduation, we moved in Manila to continue college. I chose my mom over my dad but it didn’t change anything. My college life was not easy. I transferred to different universities four times and I shifted course once. I blamed it all to my mom because she was the one who chose my course. Since my mom is working abroad, I lived with my younger brother and a maid. I became rebellious and a hard-headed daughter. I did what I want and I didn’t listen to anyone’s advice. I only listened to myself. I didn’t attend my class. I only attended hospital duties. I went clubbing, drink alcohol, and did things I am not proud of. I gave up my studies when there was only one semester left for me to graduate in college. Because of the way I thought, without parents guiding me and without God in my life and in my heart, my life became a mess.
God was intrusive in my life. One of my college friends invited me to a youth service at Victory U-belt, Pastor Ryan’s preaching time during my college days. I did go with her only twice. Since I was still enjoying my life, I wasn’t ready to have God just yet. So, I continued the things I do and because of that I got pregnant outside of marriage. I never taught that having a baby is a mistake, but a blessing from God instead. I thought of it as my wake up call.
I have finally came to my senses that I want to have a different life. Not just for me, but also for my daughter. I want God in my life and I want to have a personal relationship with Him. I met my Victory Group leader through Instagram. That time, I didn’t know that she was a Christian. Later on, I learned that she was a Victory Group Leader at Victory Ortigas. God’s timing is really perfect. We did “God’s Test”, “One2One”, and I attended Victory Weekend.
God gave me a new heart. I have learned to forgive the people who hurt me in the past, my parents and forgave myself too.
With the planner’s SOAP Bible reading plan, I finished reading the Bible in one year for the very first time in my whole life.
It helps me as well to be more positive in life with its daily positivity quotes which I usually share on my social media accounts. I also write down my monthly spiritual goals and reflect to them at the end of the month. With the help of the Certified Positive Planner, I find a way to start my day with a grateful heart as I experience HIM through this planner and His Words.
I know I am still a work in progress and I know God has a lot of plans for me. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.”
I may not know what God’s plan is but I know it is much better than my plan. I don’t need to worry because Matthew 6:25 says, “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life.” because my Father is in control of everything. Lordship is not having a one-time experience with God, but developing a lifetime with God.