How #CertifiedPositive Planner Helped Me With My Walk With Jesus Christ

I was born and raised in a Catholic family. I have a grandmother who is a nun and an uncle who is a priest. I attended a catholic school since grade one until college but it does not make me a religious person. I don’t attend Sunday mass unless there is a school activity and we are required to attend. I only pray if I want to and most of the time if I need to ask God for something. I knew God existed and I do believe in Him but I never have a personal relationship with God.

Growing up without my parents’ presence was hard and it became harder when they separated a week before my high school graduation. No words can describe how painful it was for me. I hated them as much as I hated and questioned God- why did He allow it to happen. It made my heart more distant to Him. I only talk to Him if I am in need of something. But then I realized why God listen and answer even if we’re not close.

After my high school graduation, we moved in Manila to continue college. I chose my mom over my dad but it didn’t change anything. My college life was not easy. I transferred to different universities four times and I shifted course once. I blamed it all to my mom because she was the one who chose my course. Since my mom is working abroad, I lived with my younger brother and a maid. I became rebellious and a hard-headed daughter. I did what I want and I didn’t listen to anyone’s advice. I only listened to myself. I didn’t attend my class. I only attended hospital duties. I went clubbing, drink alcohol, and did things I am not proud of. I gave up my studies when there was only one semester left for me to graduate in college. Because of the way I thought, without parents guiding me and without God in my life and in my heart, my life became a mess.

God was intrusive in my life. One of my college friends invited me to a youth service at Victory U-belt, Pastor Ryan’s preaching time during my college days. I did go with her only twice. Since I was still enjoying my life, I wasn’t ready to have God just yet. So, I continued the things I do and because of that I got pregnant outside of marriage. I never taught that having a baby is a mistake, but a blessing from God instead. I thought of it as my wake up call.

I have finally came to my senses that I want to have a different life. Not just for me, but also for my daughter. I want God in my life and I want to have a personal relationship with Him. I met my Victory Group leader through Instagram. That time, I didn’t know that she was a Christian. Later on, I learned that she was a Victory Group Leader at Victory Ortigas. God’s timing is really perfect. We did “God’s Test”, “One2One”, and I attended Victory Weekend.